馬英九加入臉書(Facebook)一周年感言

2012年1月28日

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各位朋友大家好,從去(100)年1月28日我加入臉書的行列,到今天剛好滿一週年。去年今天,我發佈了第一則貼文,9月9日我的臉書按讚數到達100萬,到今天已經有超過136萬個朋友加入了我的專頁。這代表越來越多人願意關心公共事務。臉書是一個方便有效的溝通管道,顯示台灣是一個善於使用公共管道,樂於進行公共溝通的多元社會。

我常常在臉書上分享我的公務行程,希望透過我的眼睛,讓更多人知道台灣有很多角落有很多善良勤樸的人們正努力的讓各種美好的事物發生。我希望這能形成一個良性循環,網友們在閱讀後,常常能留下許多有意義的回應與深受感動的心情,讓更多人知道台灣的美好,因此自己也變成創造美好事物的人,並影響周遭的人們。

我也常常在臉書以公共政策為題,徵求大家的意見,來讓政府的決策更周延。像是去年4月8日,我在臉書向大家請益國光石化應否興建的議題,很多網友都提供了寶貴意見。而像是「奢侈稅」、「居住正義」、「節能減碳」等至關大家日常生活的議題,大家的看法也豐富了我們的決策思維。

我也希望透過臉書方便快速的特性,發揮公共預警的功能。像去年311日本震災當日,我在臉書上提醒臺灣東北部沿海民眾注意海嘯可能造成的災害。去年五月汛期開始後,我不斷請大家對颱風、豪雨、土石流提高警覺,提醒大家注意流感疫情等等。每次在我臉書發布這些消息時,都是最令我掛念擔心的時刻,幸好去年政府與民間對各項災害防備得宜,天災人禍是十多年來最少的一年,大家可說是過了一個平安年。

我有時也會在臉書上分享一些個人生活感性的一面。像是母親節想起媽媽對我的愛護與教導,讓我一生受用不盡。情人節到了,就想起30多年來美青對我的信任、照顧與包容,讓我了無後顧之憂。結婚周年,深感我有幸尋得一個人生、家庭與事業的好伴侶、父親節接到兩個女兒的越洋電話,高興了一整天等;我跟大家都一樣,都是很努力的想要把為人子、為人夫、為人父的責任、以及公共職責角色扮演好。

這一年來跟各位網友在臉書上的互動,真是一種難得又豐富的經驗,讓我印象深刻、獲益良多。接下來的時間,請各位臉書上的好朋友們繼續給我鼓勵,給我提醒,讓我們一起為台灣加油,讓台灣成為我們更美好的家園。

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情书》象一滴水一样 ——纪念高华老师

刘瑜

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想赞美一个人纯真时,我总想起一个比喻,“他就象一滴水一样”。

在 我眼里,高华老师“就象一滴水一样”。有很多人认为高华是出于社会责任感而研究党史,对此我当然毫不怀疑。但是我私下认为,对于高华老师,与社会责任感 同样重要的,是他对历史真相孩童般的好奇心。《红太阳是怎样升起的》一书的后记中提到,他9岁时就对《参考消息》发生了兴趣,10岁时就开始关注中苏论 战,12岁就无师自通学会了“领导排名学”…… 想想大多数人以及自己10来岁时的兴趣所在,我不禁感慨:高华是个天生的历史学家。是与生俱来的好奇心,帮助他克服恐惧、清贫、孤单,写出了那么多拨云见 日的史论。也是这种好奇心,让57岁的他身上依然有9岁儿童的纯真。

我只见过高老师一次。2010年12月,我从一个好友那得知他重病,于是邀约了几个好友同去南京看他。

那 次见到高华老师,他和我想象中的一摸一样:谦和、笑容灿烂、谈起党史时神采飞扬。但让我印象最深刻的,是他在疾病面前的尊严感。我们去看他时,他已经被 诊断肝癌三年,穿着病号服躺在病床上,身体极其虚弱,甚至在我们与他交谈的过程中,需要时不时用手微微顶住腹部,似乎是在扛住突袭的疼痛。但是他脸上完全 没有一个重症病人的期期艾艾感,好像我们不是在一个病房里,而是在一个咖啡馆里,一群年轻人围着一个长辈谈笑风生。由于他的病情,我们没有久留,但短短半 个小时的交谈,话题却很快跳到苏斯洛夫、王鼎钧的回忆录、文革史……,讲到这些高老师如数家珍,又似一个博物馆长在领着一群孩子参观他心爱的博物馆。

去一个陌生的城市去看望一个陌生人,这在我的人生中迄今是唯一一次。之前我和高华老师没有任何私交,我甚至从未去过南京,鲁莽地跑去看望他,纯粹是出于一个读者对一个作者的敬仰之心。更确切地说,是义务。

2003 年左右,我逐步确立了博士论文的主题:“毛时代的群众路线”。之前我对毛时代的各种史料虽然略有所知,但有限的知识七零八落、散乱无章,没有一根 可以把它们串连起来的线索。虽然也在师友的引导下读了一些中外学术作品,但始终有云山雾罩感。正是此时,我读到了高华老师的《红太阳是怎样升起的》。这对 于当时的我,有如在一个神秘洞穴里摸黑前行时,突然手里被塞进一把手电筒,一下子看到了洞穴里的来路和去路,岩壁与潜流。说看望高华老师对我是义务,是因 为一个黑暗中迷路的人,应当感谢那个往她手里塞进一把手电筒的人。

很多人认为《红太阳》是一本传世之作,我认为这个说法毫不夸张。由于众 所周知的原因,高华能够接触到的史料极其有限,所以若干年后,随着更多档案解密,也 许这本书里的某些史料细节会过时,但我相信这本书的价值却不会因之动摇,因此此书的价值不在于史料方面什么惊天动地的“发现”,而在于它敏锐的问题意识 ——通过剖析延安整风运动的来龙去脉,《红太阳》揭示了中国革命最核心的“秘密”:中国式思想改造的缘起与模式。

哪怕与其它共产主义国家相 比,中国的共产主义革命也是极其独特的。这种独特性体现在,在政治动员的规模、程度与可持续上,其它国家都与中国无法相比,而这 种空前绝后的政治动员又与共产党“思想改造”的能力密切相关。正是人们的“灵魂”被改造了,才使得革命的血雨腥风得以狂飙突进。也就是说,中国革命最独特 的地方,在其洗脑之成功——如此成功,以至于与其它共产主义国家相比,毛时代的中国几乎不需要秘密警察:人与人之间的相互监视以及人的自我监督已经足以支 撑这个制度的运转。

在《红太阳是怎样升起的》一书里,我们读到了这种思想改造的“配方”:资源的垄断式供给+全面改写历史前提下的信息封 闭+观念的强制灌输+在群体中孤立个 体+暴力威胁;以及这种“思想改造”外科手术般的“程序”:封闭的学习文件 -> 组织群体对个体进行批评与攻击 -> 自我羞辱式的检查与“交心” -> 必要时的惩罚甚至暴力惩罚 -> 纠偏阶段受害者的感激涕零。这一套“配方”与“程序”,在以后历次整风运动中屡试不爽,甚至被日常化和制度化,效果不断积累,最终形成了“亿万颗头脑中只 有一颗可以自由运转”的悲剧。

很多人将《红太阳》看作一本“射日”之作,意即它解构了毛主席的神话。不错,高华的确通过丰富的史料和细腻的分析呈现了“红太阳”的权谋之术。在高华笔下,毛就象马基雅维利笔下的那个君主,同时有着狐狸的狡猾与狮子的凶猛,他 的政治策略正如他的军事策略:集中兵力、各个击破、避实击虚…… 但是,《红太阳》不仅仅是关于一个人,它甚至不仅仅关于一场运动,在最深的层面上,它是对人性的一次深描。在书中,毛的每一次胜利,都由“围观者们”的冷 漠、嫉妒甚至贪婪推波助澜。那个著名的句式似乎也可以用在这里:“当他打AB团时,我没有说话,因为我不是AB团;当他打王明时,我没有说话,因为我不是 王明;当他打王实味时,我没有说话,因为我不是王实味……”从这个意义上,《红太阳》不仅仅是一本剖析“王道”之书,更是一本关于人性幽暗之寓言。“乱哄 哄你方唱罢我登场……到头来都是为他人做嫁衣裳”。

对于20世纪中国的左祸起源,有各种隔靴搔痒的看法:有的认为左祸始于 文革,有的认为它始于反右,更远的追溯到土改,但在高华之前,极少有人去碰触“延 安”这个神话。美国学者Mark Selden七十年代出版九十年代重版的《革命中国的延安道路》,也对“延安模式”也做了浪漫主义的诠释。直到今天,“延安精神”在很多人眼里,仍然代表 着理想主义、官民平等和生死与共的“战斗情谊”。正是因此,高华对延安整风运动的反思性分析可以说是“冒天下之大不韪”——如果说很多人的研究是将一个神 话故事的枝节剪去,他却是将一个神话连根拔起。不少学者认为,如果没有大跃进,就不会有文革。进一步倒推,如果没有反右造成的万马齐喑,就不会有大跃进的 成功。再推,如果没有土改镇反的成功,反右也不可能如此顺畅……在这个倒推的过程中,高华则走得更远:如果没有延安整风,就不会有“毛主席万岁”。今天很 多人鞭笞文革中的“人性沦丧”,却对延安时期的“理想主义”赞赏有加,然而,冰冻三尺,非一日之寒,高华的研究显示,延安整风中的人人过关“向党交心”, 与文革中万众一心挥舞红宝书的场景,不过是多米诺骨牌第一张与最后一张的关系而已。

然 而“冒天下之大不韪”的勇气只是高华老师的一面。勇气与严谨的结合,才是《红太阳》成为经典的原因。因为解构“红太阳”的神话,自然冒犯了诸多神话信 徒,一些恼羞成怒的信徒至今仍在攻击高华,但事实上真正仔细阅读高华的书与文章,就会发现高华绝不是一个偏激的“愤青”。他持重温和,细密精准,有一分证 据说一分话,评价历史人物总是引导读者回到当时的历史情境。这是为什么写作《红太阳》一书,高华老师需要精耕细作十多年。在档案不解密、资料来源非常有限 的情况下,高华老师的写作无异于一个巨型的“填字游戏”——他 需要不断从已知的信息中推导未知的信息,而这种推导最终依赖于他对浩渺史料的掌握、比照、揣 摩和衔接。一个人回忆录中不经意的某句话,和另一个人回忆录中不经意的某句话,叠加来看,也许就否证了第三个人回忆录中的不经意的另一句话。一份电报上某 个名字的出现暗示了某个信息,而另一份电报上某个名字的缺席则指向另一个信息。正是对史料精细的把握和分析,将高华锻炼成了一个党史知识方面的“福尔摩 斯”。有朋友告诉我,一位有机会接触绝密档案的学者曾感叹,高华没有读过档案情况下所推理出来的历史图景,竟与他看到的档案所揭示的图景惊人一致。这个故 事的可信度我不清楚,但数十年苦心研读已使高华老师成为党史方面的百科全书式人物,却是有目共睹。

《一 九八四》中,历史是不断被改写的——不断变化的现实需要不同的历史,于是历史就象橡皮泥一样不断被揉捏、被塑造成“政治正确”的形状服务于现实政治。 在《红太阳》中,延安整风的成功恰恰依赖于毛对党史的“重塑”——纷繁复杂的党史被归结为“正确路线”和“错误路线”的斗争史,而“正确路线”的最卓越代 表自然是“红太阳”本人。今天,权力的巩固仍然借助于对历史的改写与屏蔽。历史一层层被擦掉,或者被涂抹,失忆的人群也因此成为价值的木偶。

高 华这样“不识时务”的历史学家则是在带领人们出走,突破对记忆的这种封锁。据说《红太阳》一书,是高华在深夜的厨房里,就着昏暗灯光写出来的。我想象那 个画面,觉得无比动人,仿佛看见一个地质学家在翻山越岭,搜寻过去留下的遗迹,试图告诉我们这里曾经有一个湖泊,那里曾经有一个冰川。《一九八四》里,男 主角温斯顿发现一个和自己一样怀疑伪造的历史的“同类”时无比惊喜,他举杯对那个人说:“为了过去”。不知道高华老师是否读过这本书,如果读过,读到这里 也许会心有戚戚。是的,不是为了“美好的未来”,不是为了“欣欣向荣的今天”,他的努力仅仅是“为了过去”,为了一就是一、而不是零或者二、不多不少正好 是一的过去。

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My Favorite Movie Monologues

“Greed is Good,” Wall Street (1988)

Gordon Gekko (Michael Douglas): Teldar Paper, Mr. Cromwell, Teldar Paper has 33 different vice presidents each earning over 200 thousand dollars a year. Now, I have spent the last two months analyzing what all these guys do, and I still can’t figure it out. (Laughter.) One thing I do know is that our paper company lost 110 million dollars last year, and I’ll bet that half of that was spent in all the paperwork going back and forth between all these vice presidents. The new law of evolution in corporate America seems to be survival of the unfittest. Well, in my book you either do it right or you get eliminated. In the last seven deals that I’ve been involved with, there were 2.5 million stockholders who have made a pretax profit of 12 billion dollars. Thank you. I am not a destroyer of companies. I am a liberator of them! The point is, ladies and gentleman, that greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right, greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through, and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of its forms; greed for life, for money, for love, knowledge has marked the upward surge of mankind. And greed, you mark my words, will not only save Teldar Paper, but that other malfunctioning corporation called the USA. Thank you very much.

“Out of Order,” Scent of a Woman (1992)

Lt. Col. Frank Slade (Al Pacino): Out of order, I show you out of order. You don’t know what out of order is, Mr. Trask. I’d show you, but I’m too old, I’m too tired, I’m too fuckin’ blind. If I were the man I was five years ago, I’d take a FLAMETHROWER to this place! Out of order? Who the hell do you think you’re talkin’ to? I’ve been around, you know? There was a time I could see. And I have seen. Boys like these, younger than these, their arms torn out, their legs ripped off. But there isn’t nothin’ like the sight of an amputated spirit. There is no prosthetic for that. You think you’re merely sending this splendid foot soldier back home to Oregon with his tail between his legs, but I say you are… executin’ his soul! And why? Because he’s not a Bairdman. Bairdmen. You hurt this boy, you’re gonna be Baird bums, the lot of ya. And Harry, Jimmy, Trent, wherever you are out there, FUCK YOU TOO!

“If I Ask You,” Good Will Hunting (1997)

Sean Maguire (Robin Williams): So if I asked you about art, you’d probably give me the skinny on every art book ever written. Michelangelo, you know a lot about him. Life’s work, political aspirations, him and the pope, sexual orientations, the whole works, right? But I’ll bet you can’t tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You’ve never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling; seen that.

If I ask you about women, you’d probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can’t tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy.

You’re a tough kid. And I’d ask you about war, you’d probably throw Shakespeare at me, right, “once more unto the breach dear friends.” But you’ve never been near one. You’ve never held your best friend’s head in your lap, watch him gasp his last breath looking to you for help.

I’d ask you about love, you’d probably quote me a sonnet. But you’ve never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn’t know what it’s like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything, through cancer. And you wouldn’t know about sleeping sitting up in the hospital room for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes, that the terms “visiting hours” don’t apply to you.

You don’t know about real loss, ’cause it only occurs when you’ve loved something more than you love yourself. And I doubt you’ve ever dared to love anybody that much. And look at you… I don’t see an intelligent, confident man… I see a cocky, scared shitless kid. But you’re a genius Will. No one denies that. No one could possibly understand the depths of you. But you presume to know everything about me because you saw a painting of mine, …

“Obituary of Jonathan Trager,” Serendipity (2001)

Dean Kansky (John Corbett): Jonathan Trager, prominent television producer for ESPN, died last night from complications of losing his soul mate and his fiancee. He was 35 years old. Soft-spoken and obsessive, Trager never looked the part of a hopeless romantic. But, in the final days of his life, he revealed an unknown side of his psyche. This hidden quasi-Jungian persona surfaced during the Agatha Christie-like pursuit of his long reputed soul mate, a woman whom he only spent a few precious hours with. Sadly, the protracted search ended late Saturday night in complete and utter failure. Yet even in certain defeat, the courageous Trager secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. Uh-uh. But rather, it’s a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan. Asked about the loss of his dear friend, Dean Kansky, the Pulitzer Prize-winning author and executive editor of the New York Times, described Jonathan as a changed man in the last days of his life. “Things were clearer for him,” Kansky noted. Ultimately Jonathan concluded that if we are to live life in harmony with the universe, we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call “fatum”, what we currently refer to as destiny.

“You Don’t Have Free Will,” The Adjustment Bureau (2011)

Thompson (Terence Stamp): We actually tried Free Will before. After taking you from hunting and gathering to the height of the Roman Empire we stepped back to see how you’d do on your own. You gave us the Dark Ages for five centuries… until finally we decided we should come back in. The Chairman thought maybe we just needed to do a better job of teaching you how to ride a bike before taking the training wheels off again. So we gave you the Renaissance, the Enlightenment, the Scientific Revolution. For six hundred years we taught you to control your impulses with reason, then in 1910 we stepped back. Within fifty years, you’d brought us World War I, the Depression, Fascism, the Holocaust and capped it off by bringing the entire planet to the brink of destruction in the Cuban Missile Crisis. At that point a decision was taken to step back in again before you did something that even we couldn’t fix. You don’t have free will, David. You have the appearance of free will.

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良史高华

英国《金融时报》中文网编辑 吴铮

2011年12月30日

12月26日,史学家、南京大学历史系教授高华先生病逝,年仅57岁。中国古人将杰出的史官和史书称为良史。高华和他的专著《红太阳是怎样升起的——延安整风的来龙去脉》(香港中文大学出版社2000年出版),堪称当代中国不多见的良史。

《汉书》赞司马迁“有良史之材”,“其文直、其事核,不虚美、不隐恶”,后人皆服。治史的人,有辨伪存真,信而有征的才学,又有秉笔直书,敢讲真话的品格,才称得上良史。

高华先生有良史之才。《红太阳是怎样升起的》问世前,中国关于这段历史的记载近乎一盘散沙。一方面,延安整风作为中国共产党历史上一次重要的政治运动,在官方文献、政治宣传和个人回忆中被屡屡提及;另一方面,官修历史对这一时期的说法往往围绕千篇一律的政治结论,缺少对历史细节和时代背景的还原。档案定期解密制度的缺失,更让延安整风的面貌扑朔迷离。

凭借中、苏近现代史“活字典”的扎实功底和成长在文化大革命特殊年代养成的敏锐嗅觉,高华花费十多年时间,在卷帙浩繁的史料中,考据、辨伪、挖掘,求证历史的真相。这如同在几千块碎片中找出一千块有用碎片,再拼成一幅事先不知全貌的复杂拼图。

《红太阳是怎样升起的》就是这样一册延安整风的拼图连环画。高华坚持用证据说话。阅读高著上千条的注释和参考文献,印象最深的就是史家据事言理,不空发议论的实证精神。高华并没有单独接触隐密档案的机缘,书中引用史料均已公开出版,其中绝大多数来自大陆权威的出版机构。这更显出史家研究的功力和心血。

特别可贵的是高华先生的良史之心。史家对真相的追求有时并不符合政治的需要。是秉笔直书还是为尊者讳?这是对治史者良心的拷问。

研究延安整风,毛泽东是一个绕不开的历史人物。司马迁身为汉朝史官,直书汉高祖刘邦贪财好色,记载他逃跑时推儿女下车,敢用“且喜且怜之”来描摹刘邦得知吕后杀韩信后的反应。这种“不隐恶”的良史风骨在高华的书中看得到。

延安整风和“红太阳升起”是改变中国二十世纪历史进程的大事。1949年后,中国的政治运作方式和历次重大政治运动,无不投射下延安整风的影子。从历史中吸取教训,首先是要有求真求实的史家和史书。

高华比常人更懂得中共党史不同于一般的历史。为学术研究得出的结论在政治上未必正确,而政治随时可能葬送一个体制内学者的前程。以高华的才华,不必说什么违心话,只要换个不太敏感的研究课题,不难跻身于电视明星学者、畅销书作者之列,告别清贫,名利双收。

就个人而言,高华选择了一条荆棘丛生的路,就国家和民族而言,他的选择无疑是一种担当。历史研究和历史教育如果止步于为“伟大、光荣、正确”作注脚,与“秦人不暇自哀”何异?

以史为鉴,是中国的古训,更是人类文明的体现。中国人对过去一百年历史的正视和反思,尤其不能例外。高华先生为缩小这段历史中的盲区鞠躬尽瘁,他是当代中国的良史。

读高华的书,是对他最好的纪念。任何个人都有局限,司马迁亦非无瑕。后人如能指正高著史料或逻辑上的错误,推动中国近现代史的研究更进一步,恰是对良史传统最好的继承,这也是高华著书的初衷。

高华一生洞察权谋,却不醉心权谋。如果说他字里行间流露了什么个人倾向,那就是对天下苍生的悲悯。“人固有一死,或重于泰山,或轻于鸿毛。” 我与高华先生虽不相识,在我眼里,他的死比泰山还重。

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不可不信缘

Yesterday my friend and I had a heated debate about a song we heard in a Starbucks in Guangzhou. I reacted without any hesitation that it’s the theme song from the 2003 Korean movie 클래식 (The Classic; 假如爱有天意 / 不可不信缘); she insisted that it’s a Chinese song and she first heard about it before 2003 (she couldn’t recall the name then but later found it was 灰色空间 by 罗志祥). At some point it looked like the debate was going to devolve into one of those familiar disputes about some shared cultural heritage between the Korean and the Chinese. We placed a bet on it and both did some research later on. Neither won; according to some seemingly authoritative source, it was a song by George Benson, called “Classic River.” I think Korean movies did a wonderful job reviving a number of time-honored tunes to popular acceptance. I even dug into my old music folders and listened to the entire original soundtrack again. It was so darn romantic.

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海归第一周

从美国回来一个多星期了。上周六在上海参加了CBLA((Chinese Business Lawyers Association)和CLECSS(China Legal Education & Career Seminar Series)在国家开发银行大楼合办的一个讲座,单上海一地就有一百多人出席,北京那边也有很多人通过视频参与。晚上代表CBLA和五位主讲律师及东道主吃饭。回家后处理Inbox里积压下来的各种事情,并参加了家中一位刚刚去世的九十六岁老人的葬礼(实为九十五岁,但家乡习俗算虚岁)。很快就要赴港入职,只能趁这个周末短暂的空档,略记一下回国一周的些许感受。

一、网络管制

很抱歉一上来就要谈这个不太方便的话题,但这确实是海归后需要面对的第一个问题。去年在国内用的工具(一个软件和一个VPN服务)都不能用了。因为需要去Facebook上传几张因临行前仓促而未能上传的照片,所以必须立即解决这个问题。问了一个tech-savvy的同学,很快便搞定了,而且惊喜地发现VPN的价格比去年跌了一半,月租只要十元。(当然也可能去年就有这样价廉物美的服务,只是我没有找到。)

我想用比较轻松的口气来写这篇文章,但在这个问题上可能会比较郑重。其实去年五月底、六月初那次回国我就已经感受到这一点:那就是中国的网络管制不仅严重地侵害了信息的自由流通,而且导致一个专业人士无法正常地工作。在墙内工作的感受可以用“处处碰壁”来形容:处处是无法打开的链接,而且这些链接和政治没有半毛钱的关系。A lot of WTF moments。网络环境比起一年前的夏天又有了新的、更大幅度的倒退:不仅WordPress这种个人表达的平台完全被封(基于WordPress建设的独立网站还可以上,比如我这个博客),IMDB和Amazon居然也被封了,匪夷所思、更令人沮丧。

这样的管制与清朝以及我朝前几十年的闭关锁国、愚民政策何异?!作为一个经济学的学生,我向来比其他专业领域的批评者们看到更多、因此也更愿意承认中G对这个国家的发展所作出的贡献。但在网络管制这个问题上,我的立场向来是毫不含糊的。它不仅给像我这样的个体带来很大不便和损失(情感上的和经济上的),更是对这个民族的思想力和创造力、对这个国家经济活力的极大戕害。当今世界,信息和创造力是第一生产力。美国和西方虽然近年来经济表现疲软,但其活力的根源依然健在,在建设信息社会方面,更是高筑墙、广积粮、缓称王,决不可小觑。中国要在未来保持健康、持续的经济和社会发展,乃至在世界舞台上实现更高的腾跃,端赖每一个国民个体思想的解放和创造力的释放,端赖每一个国民个体实现更大程度的个人自由和更饱满的个人发展。当下的网络管制恰恰阻塞了解放和释放的通道、阻碍了自由和发展的过程。

二、旅行与常住、艳遇与结婚

抛开网络管制的阴霾不谈,出国六年间的数次回国,每次都会对国内的新发展和新事物倍感振奋,每次都感到中国和美国的差距正在迅速缩小,在不少领域甚至已经超越了美国。但这次回来,看到的情况却很不同,也正应了那句老话,叫做“境由心生”。和朋友的通信中我写道:“也许这就是旅行和常住、艳遇和结婚的区别吧……前者放大优点和亮点,后者放大缺点和斑点。” 海归后的一周内,我常感到体内美国的那一部分(毕竟,人生五分之一到四分之一的时间在美国读过)在随机性地自我增强(self-intensifying, in a random way),特别是看到国内和美国特别不一样的那些方面时。常常一觉醒来,觉得自己的思维方式和节奏仿佛又回到了美国。

简单地说,我这次回国更多看到中国在诸多方面与美国依然存在着较大的差距,更多看到生活在社会角落里的那些人们。海归后的第一个早晨,我走在浦东陆家嘴的街上,看着那些普遍缺乏创意和审美观的建筑、卫生条件欠佳的早点铺,心中不由自主涌起的念头竟是“Am I really stuck here this time?…”出现这样的心理反应是我始料未及的。多少次,当朋友或刚刚认识的人问我为什么会毫不犹豫、心甘情愿地回国,我总是回答:大学毕业那年的散伙饭上,我就说过五年后会回到国内——and I’m already one year overdue。可能也正因为回归是从一开始就计划好的,所以在行前没有对自己进行心理调适,出现落差也在所难免——毕竟,差距是真实存在的。

在国外,对国内不断扩大的贫富差距、底层人民的疾苦主要是通过网络了解,对网上的群情激愤、常常流于谩骂的控诉,我通常都抱有一定的怀疑态度。但回国后,哪怕只是在街上随便走一走,也能真真切切地感受到弱势群体的生活状态何其悲惨。在上海的两三天里,我自己独自吃了四顿饭,三次在陆家嘴的小餐馆(商城路、东昌路;我住在一个均价4~6万的小区,隔一条街也有好些普通的居民区;这些餐馆是离我的住处最近的),一次在中兴路的客运总站旁边。刚看到价目表时还很高兴,感觉物价并没有如何涨,似乎二十元以内就可以吃得很好。吃完后却大失所望:虽然价格看起来没有涨,但是偷工减料却很明显,量根本不足,口味也很一般,就餐环境看起来也不卫生。我怀疑在附近要吃到一顿和纽约Elmhurst(我住的区)质量相当的中餐,大约也要5美元(约32元人民币),换句话说,在餐饮这个经济领域内纽约和上海已经大致实现了购买力平价。

更让人担心的是,餐馆里的服务员不但面黄肌瘦、疑似发育不良,精神状态也很差,有两个看起来简直不是木讷,而是近乎痴呆了。这些场景让我想起陈冠中小说《盛世:中国,2013年》中某些预言式的描写。根据我的观察,这些餐馆是具有一定代表性的,主要顾客应该就是普通的工薪阶层。换句话说,上海这样的城市里工薪阶层及以下的人们很可能处于一种忍饥挨饿的状态。这是一件多么可怕的事情。与之形成鲜明对比的是,当我在一家档次较好的餐厅和一桌有头有脸的人们共进晚餐时,席间讨论的多是几百万、上千万一套的房子。

这些小餐馆里的小服务员,他们的利益由谁来维护?谁来替他们说话?住着几百万的房子、开着好车的人们,以及那些向往着住上几百万的房子、开上好车的人们(比如区区在下),大体是不会有时间来替这些人伸张权利的。我知道在美国,这些人哪怕再无力、再没有受过教育,手中至少还有一票。政客们会希望得到她手中的那一票,这种影响力是看得见、摸得着、可以量化和计算的。我们的号称代表全体人民利益的执政党,真的会动一动小拇指为这些草民做点事情吗?我总觉得有些虚无缥缈。

三、读者与读书

商城路的路边有个报亭,我在那里买了电话卡,顺便翻了翻最新的报刊。《读者》封面上印着本期推荐的四篇文章,其中之一是《骆家辉:“一英里梦想”》;《读书》封面上赫然印着《专题:辛亥革命百年》。《读者》4元,《读书》8元。我毫不犹豫地买了下来。

其时可以自由上网的VPN还没有设置好,我慢慢踱回我住的那个均价4~6万的小区,坐在小区会馆门前的长椅上、大树下,便如饥似渴地读起来。真有种久旱逢甘露的感觉。在美国,闲暇时的阅读大多是在网上完成的(林肯中心北边那家Barnes & Noble关门前,我也偶尔去那里看书),读的大多是《纽约时报》、《时代》周刊、《大西洋》月刊等英文媒体。

《读者》给了我不小的惊喜。其实我自从六年前出国后就没看过《读者》,而且心里面觉得《读者》里的文章多是人生哲理、心灵鸡汤之类的“软文”,没有什么学术性,像我这样读了这么多年书、知识体系横跨好几个专业领域的人,眼界想必是要比《读者》的典型读者高得多了。实际的阅读体验证明我太傲慢了。这期《读者》中的文章,不仅十分富有知识性和美感,而且其中所蕴含的道理也常令我怦然心动。由此我想到,互联网的普及看似把传统的纸媒体逼进了死角,但纸媒体的精心遴选和编辑,其价值在这个信息爆炸且良莠不齐的时代反而弥足珍贵。《读者》带给我的“效用”(套用经济学术语),远不是4元钱能够衡量的。我最近会摘录一些《读者》上好文章贴在这个博客上。

写了这么多,其实记录的多是海归第一天,而不是第一周的感受。如果要说回来一周最大感受的话,那就是这种文化上的亲切感,是语言很难描述的,而且随之而来的满足感胜过网络管制、贫富悬殊等社会问题带来的困惑和不快。西方的理性、多样性和辉煌成就或许让我大为叹服、心向往之,但即使在彼邦六年,和那里的人民始终没有这种骨肉相连的感情,也很难实现较深层次的情感沟通;但回来后却觉得,对这片土地上的每个人、每样事物,无论其好坏美丑,都怀有感情、负有责任。或许简单的一个字涵盖了这一切:爱。我想这也是我从一开始就对海归没有迟疑的原因。

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早晨六点,久违的家乡的日出

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有女人爱的男人

张小娴

(这篇文章网上找不到哦,是我自己敲出来的。)

从来没有光顾过这么“雅致”的的士。三十来岁的司机衣着整齐,精神爽利,与证件上的照片一样,不像大部分的的士司机,相片比真人至少年轻十多岁。车上的椅套光洁如新,车尾玻璃窗下面,放着一件叠好的风衣,数盒柠檬茶、菊花茶,几瓶矿泉水,还有香口珠,我差点以为是拿来卖给乘客的。

“是我太太放在这里的。夏天嘛,乘客口渴的话也可以用来解渴,随便喝,不收钱的。那件风衣是我的,我太太怕我晚上着凉。”司机说。

我留意到车上播放的音乐,一首中文,一首英文,梅花间竹。

“我太太替我录的。”司机笑着说。

然后他又拿起一只透明的塑料水杯,里面装着淡黄色的饮品,跟我说:“这些薏米水是我太太煲给我喝的。”

他背后的女人把这辆的士布置成了一个家,用幸福和快乐包围着他。

原来任何一个男人,只要有一个女人爱他,他就变得金贵。

被人臭骂、被人奚落的男人往往会忍不住跟对方说:“我也是阿妈生的!” “我也是阿妈生的”和“我也有一个女人爱我”,应该同样金贵。

即使是多么不堪的男人,只要有一个女人爱他,也值得骄傲,也因此可以面对无情风雨。

《读者》2011年第21期(十一月上)

摘自 北京十月文艺出版社《拥抱》

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A Syllabus on Internet, Culture, and Psychology

During the past few years, I have been attracted to the broad topic of “Internet, Culture, and Psychology.” This is a tag of my own creation, and I hope it makes sense. Below is an incomplete summary of articles that impressed, inspired and stayed with me in the past few years. Hopefully I can expand this entry as time goes by.

1. Is Google Making Us Stupid?, by Nicholas Carr, The Atlantic Monthly, July/Aug 2008.

“What the Internet is doing to our brains?”

2. Stop Your Search Engines, by Peggy Orenstein, The New York Times Magazine, Oct 23, 2009.

“Forcing ourselves offline may be the true path to knowledge.”

My annotated version

3. Book Review: Born to Check Mail, reviewing “Hamlet’s Blackberry” (William Powers), by Laurie Winer, The New York Times Sunday Book Review, July 16, 2010.

“A technology writer ponders the meaning of our obsessive connectivity.”

“His notebook allows him to “pull ideas not only out of my mind but out of the ethereal digital dimension and give them material presence and stability. Yes, you exist,” the notebook reminds us, “you are worthy of this world.””

My annotated version

4. Mark Zuckerberg: Person of the Year 2010, by Lev Grossman, TIME Magazine, Dec. 15, 2010.

“For connecting more than half a billion people and mapping the social relations among them, for creating a new system of exchanging information and for changing how we live our lives, Mark Elliot Zuckerberg is TIME’s 2010 Person of the Year.”

My annotated version

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Quotes from “Mark Zuckerberg: Person of the Year 2010,” by Lev Grossman

I read Lev Grossman’s “Mark Zuckerberg: Person of the Year 2010″ on the TIME Magazine, and find it a fascinating piece. I recommend it to anyone interested in the broad topic of internet, culture, and social psychology. The article is long (16-page print-out), and many parts are worth regurgitating. I take out those parts, for future readers’ benefit.

The long article is not divided into sections (which is a pain), and I made my own division. Section titles are my own.

1. Prologue

The team was going over the launch of Facebook’s revamped Messages service, which had happened the day before and gone off without a hitch or rather without more than the usual number of hitches. Zuckerberg kept the meeting on track, pushing briskly through his points — no notes or whiteboard, just talking with his hands — but the tone was relaxed. Much has been made of Zuckerberg’s legendarily awkward social manner, but in a room like this, he’s the Silicon Valley equivalent of George Plimpton.

The door opened, and a distinguished-looking gray-haired man burst in — it’s the only way to describe his entrance — trailed by a couple of deputies. He was both the oldest person in the room by 20 years and the only one wearing a suit. He was in the building, he explained with the delighted air of a man about to secure ironclad bragging rights forever, and he just had to stop in and introduce himself to Zuckerberg: Robert Mueller, director of the FBI, pleased to meet you.

2. Zuckerberg the Person

Zuckerberg’s life at Harvard and afterward was the subject of a movie released in October called The Social Network, written by Aaron Sorkin and directed by David Fincher. The Social Network is a rich, dramatic portrait of a furious, socially handicapped genius who spits corrosive monologues in a monotone to hide his inner pain. This character bears almost no resemblance to the actual Mark Zuckerberg. The reality is much more complicated.

Zuckerberg has often — possibly always — been described as remote and socially awkward, but that’s not quite right. True: holding a conversation with him can be challenging. He approaches conversation as a way of exchanging data as rapidly and efficiently as possible, rather than as a recreational activity undertaken for its own sake. He is formidably quick and talks rapidly and precisely, and if he has no data to transmit, he abruptly falls silent. (“I usually don’t like things that are too much about me” was how he began our first interview.) He cannot be relied on to throw the ball back or give you encouraging facial cues. His default expression is a direct and slightly wide-eyed stare that makes you wonder if you’ve got a spider on your forehead.

In spite of all that — and this is what generally gets left out — Zuckerberg is a warm presence, not a cold one. He has a quick smile and doesn’t shy away from eye contact. He thinks fast and talks fast, but he wants you to keep up. He exudes not anger or social anxiety but a weird calm. When you talk to his co-workers, they’re so adamant in their avowals of affection for him and in their insistence that you not misconstrue his oddness that you get the impression it’s not just because they want to keep their jobs. People really like him.

As for money, his indifference to it is almost pathological. His lifestyle is modest by most standards but monastic for someone whose personal fortune was estimated by Forbes at $6.9 billion, a number that puts him ahead of his Palo Alto neighbor (and fellow college dropout) Steve Jobs. Zuckerberg lives near his office in a house that he rents. He works constantly; his only current hobby is studying Chinese. He drives a black Acura TSX, which for a billionaire is the automotive equivalent of a hair shirt. For Thanksgiving break, he took his family to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Orlando. He bought a wand at Ollivander’s.

When The Social Network came out, Zuckerberg rented out a bunch of movie theaters and took the whole company to see it. Afterward they all went out for appletinis, his signature drink in the movie. He’d never had one before. “I found it funny what details they focused on getting right,” he says. “I think I owned every single T-shirt that they had me wearing. But the biggest thing that thematically they missed is the concept that you would have to want to do something — date someone or get into some final club — in order to be motivated to do something like this. It just like completely misses the actual motivation for what we’re doing, which is, we think it’s an awesome thing to do.”

3. The Social Graph

Facebook is the realization of a dream. but it’s also the death of a dream, one that began in the late 1960s. That’s when the architecture of the Internet was first laid out, and it’s a period piece. The Internet is designed the way it is to accommodate any number of practical considerations, but it’s also an expression of 1960s counterculture. No single computer runs the network. No one is in charge. It’s a paradise of equality and anonymity, an electronic commune.

In the 1970s the communes faded away, but the Internet only grew, and that countercultural attitude lingered. The presiding myth of the Internet through the 1980s and 1990s was that when you went online, you could shed your earthly baggage and be whoever you wanted. Your age, your gender, your race, your job, your marriage, where you lived, where you went to school — all that fell away. In effect, the social experiments of the 1960s were restaged online. Log on, tune in, drop out.

It grew because it gave people something they wanted. All that stuff that the Internet enabled you to leave behind, all the trappings of ordinary bourgeois existence — your job, your family, your background? On Facebook, you take it with you. It’s who you are.

The fact that people yearned not to be liberated from their daily lives but to be more deeply embedded in them is an extraordinary insight, as basic and era-defining in its way as Jobs’ realization that people prefer a graphical desktop to a command line or pretty computers to boring beige ones.

This [Whereas earlier entrepreneurs looked at the Internet and saw a network of computers, Zuckerberg saw a network of people] is not, on the face of it, a thunderously radical vision, but it’s turning out to be an incredibly powerful one. Consider: in 2005 one of the most competitive markets on the Internet was photo sharing. Into this space charged Facebook, and it can truly be said that the company brought a knife to a gunfight.

This is the modus operandi of Facebook and the ecosystem of developers who create applications for it: move into a market and take it over by making it social, as the in-house parlance has it. They have one big weapon, the social graph, and it’s a category killer.

4. Vision

Your Facebook membership is becoming the Internet equivalent of a passport: a tool for verifying your identity.

5. The Office

These are the kinds of power nerds to whom the movies don’t do justice: fast-talking, user-friendly, laser-focused and radiating the kind of confidence that gives you a sunburn. Sorkin did a much better job of representing Facebook when he wrote The West Wing.

6. Advertising

Google can serve ads to you on the basis of educated guesses about who you are and what you’re interested in, which are based in turn on your search history. Facebook doesn’t have to guess. It knows exactly who you are and what you’re interested in, because you told it. So if Nike wants its ads shown only to people ages 19 to 26 who live in Arizona and like Nickelback, Facebook can make that happen. In the world of targeted advertising, Facebook has a high-powered sniper rifle.

Facebook is the way it is because of who Zuckerberg is. The color scheme is blue and white because Zuckerberg is red-green color-blind: there are a lot of colors he can’t see, but blue he can see.

7. Privacy, Identity, and Relationship

Empathy and bandwidthyou could inscribe the words on Zuckerberg’s coat of arms. And they are without a doubt both good things. But are they good for everybody all the time? Sometimes Zuckerberg can sound like a wheedling spokesman for the secret police of some future totalitarian state. Why wouldn’t you want to share? Why wouldn’t you want to be open — unless you’ve got something to hide?

But what makes life complicated in the postmodern technocratic aquarium we’re collectively building is that there actually are good reasons to want to hide things. Just because you present a different face to your co-workers and your family doesn’t mean you’re leading a double life. That’s just normal social functioning, psychology as usual. Identity isn’t a simple thing; it’s complex and dynamic and fluid. It needs to flex a little, the way a skyscraper does in a high wind, and your Facebook profile isn’t built to flex.

For all of Zuckerberg’s EQ, Facebook runs on a very stiff, crude model of what people are like. It herds everybody — friends, co-workers, romantic partners, that guy who lived on your block but moved away after fifth grade — into the same big room. It smooshes together your work self and your home self, your past self and your present self, into a single generic extruded product. It suspends the natural process by which old friends fall away over time, allowing them to build up endlessly, producing the social equivalent of liver failure. On Facebook, there is one kind of relationship: friendship, and you have it with everybody. You’re friends with your spouse, and you’re friends with your plumber.

But there is another danger, which is that instead of feeling forced to share, we won’t be able to stop ourselves from sharing — that we will willingly, compulsively violate our own privacy. Relationships on Facebook have a seductive, addictive quality that can erode and even replace real-world relationships. Friendships multiply with gratifying speed, and the emotional stakes stay soothingly low; where there isn’t much privacy, there can’t be much intimacy either. It’s like an emotional Ponzi scheme, where you keep putting energy in and getting it back tenfold, even though the dividends start to feel a little fake.

Facebook is supposed to build empathy, but since 2000, Americans have scored higher and higher on psychological tests designed to detect narcissism, and psychologists have suggested a link to social networking. According to the American Academy of Matrimonial Lawyers, 81% of its members have seen a rise in the number of divorce cases involving social networking; 66% cite Facebook as the primary source for online divorce evidence. Openness and connectedness are all well and good, but someone should give two cheers at least for being closed and disconnected too.

For all its industrial efficiency and scalability, its transhemispheric reach and its grand civil integrity, Facebook is still a painfully blunt instrument for doing the delicate work of transmitting human relationships. It’s an excellent utility for sending and receiving data, but we are not data, and relationships cannot be reduced to the exchange of information or making binary decisions between liking and not liking, friending and unfriending.

However much more authentic the selves we present on Facebook are than they were in the anonymous Internet wilderness that came before it, they still fall far short of our true selves, and confusing our Facebook profiles with who we really are would be a terrible mistake. We are running our social lives over the Internet, an infrastructure that was not designed for that purpose, and we must be aware of the distortions it creates or we will be distorted by them.

8. Back to the Future

How big could Facebook get? It’s big enough that it’s starting to bump up against governments as well as other companies. Mueller’s visit wasn’t a one-off. He was there because Zuckerberg has a better database than he does. Facebook has a richer, more intimate hoard of information about its citizens than any nation has ever had, and the U.S. government sometimes comes knocking, subpoena in hand, looking to borrow some.

But even without China, there’s a distinct feeling of manifest destiny about Facebook. Plot its current growth on a curve and it hits a billion members in 2012. There are 6.9 billion people in the world, 2 billion of whom are on the Internet. Is there a point at which all of them are on Facebook?

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羁旅常堪醉,相留畏晓钟

每逢离别之际总会收到动人的文字。朋友在Facebook上贴了一篇旧文送我:

好友L君今天离开纽约。单程票。他贴了Bryant Park夜景一张以志纪念,让我想到几年前自己的一篇拙文,那夏日的周四下午在办公室竟撇开案头琐事不写不快。希望L君穿透表面的灰暗,看到拙文内里的振奋。

悼Coliseum Books

Coliseum Books(曾)位于四十二街北侧,五六大道之间,Bryant Park正对面,东邻墨西哥时尚食肆Chipotle和果汁专家Jamba Juice,西接纽约大学眼科中心及Hale and Hearty Soup等,(曾)是距本人办公室最近之一家书店,三载寒暑,午餐既毕,或加班偷闲,(曾)诸多流连,诸多徜徉。凡三十三年,又一家纽约的独立书店,也不看一眼奋力抗争连锁大店的累累伤痕,一声轻叹,就此黯然收场。

纽约太阳报讲到一名剧作家戴上黑纱表达哀思,另一位纽约客叹道这家书店实乃纽约还值得一住的原因之一。其实,那是五年前那次(短暂)关门后的事,而这一次是真格的了。世界是残酷的,纽约尤然。

仿似一只空罐子那么落寞 / 彷似一串荒冷的流逝烟花。

爱死了达明一派的《情流夜中环》,却才意识到一表哀思,这支歌何其贴切。故店的格言是”So Many Books, So Little Time,” 若非冥冥中早有注定,达明何以早将其中译唱出:

可否不理世界 / 不要见怪 / 青春借贷 / 倾心于一瞬间

三年前的五月说要离开卡耐基梅隆时,好友敏杰(Human-Computer Interaction)曾赠我马克斯韦伯的选段,至今言犹在耳。敏杰回国创业之后,联系不多,他那份光芒四射的博客也已经不存在了。好在我到了CMU之后、在崇尚技术的大氛围影响下开始用Google Reader,有幸保留了他这篇珍贵的博客,贴在这里,以资纪念。

送张展
by Minjie
May 4, 2008

前几日得知好友张展做出了人生目前为止最大也将是最有意义的决定。

我把这篇马克思韦伯的《以政治为业》里的选段送给你。希望你在纽约一切顺利。有一天我会再去找你喝酒畅聊。

“第五个阶层,即大学里训练出来的法律学家,为西方,尤其是欧洲大陆所特有,他们对这个大陆的整个政治结构有着决定性的意义。经罗马的官僚制国家改造后的罗马法,对后世所产生的巨大影响,再清楚不过地表现于这样一个事实,无论在何处,以促进理性国家的发展为方向的政治革新,一概是由受过训练的法律学家所发动。这一现象也出现在英格兰,尽管在那里,法律学家庞大的全国性行会组织妨碍了对罗马法的接受。在世界的任何其他地区,都看不到与这一过程类似的现象。”

“缺少这种法律的理性主义,绝对专制国家的兴起就像法国大革命一样,是难以想象的。各位如果浏览一下法国高等法院的谏议册(remonstration),或16世纪至1789年法国三级会议的陈情书(cabiers de doleances)[24],你随处都可以看到法律学家的这种精神。如果你观察一下法国国民议会[25]成员的职业构成,便可发现,尽管这些成员是按照平等参政权选举产生,其中却只有一位无产者,寥寥几名资产阶级实业家,和一大批各种各样的律师。没有这些人,激励着激进知识分子及其各种方案的特殊精神,便是难以想象的。自从法国大革命以来,近代法律家和近代民主便水乳交融密不可分。从我们今天的含义看,作为一个独立身份阶层的律师,也是唯独在西方才存在。从中世纪开始,在诉讼理性化的影响下,他们从日耳曼形式主义的法律程序中的代辩人发展而来。”

“实际上,如今的政治,极大程度上是在公众之中利用言辩和文字来操作的。增强文字的效果,恰好是适合于律师来做的工作,而不是完全适合文官的工作。文官不是煽动家,他的目标也不是变成煽动家。如果他试图变成煽动家,通常他也只能成为十分差劲的煽动家。”

注:黑体部分为敏杰所加。这篇文章题为《以政治为业》,送我其实未必恰当,因为我既从未宣称过要“以政治为业”,心里对那个职业也没有什么感觉。当然,未来的事情都很难说,故不能讲得太绝对。敏杰君也不是唯一一个替我如此打算的人,呵呵。还是要先做一个合格的人,然后才能谈得上对于这个社会能有怎样的贡献。

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